Tomorrow is the new year. For some reason, for the first time ever, the prospect of the new year excites me. It’s not that I have dreaded the future before, nor that I’m eager for this year to be over. I just never before saw any significance to the changing of a number at the [...]
Archive for December, 2008
The new year comes
Posted in Introspection, Job, journal, tagged boy, career, cute, job, New Year, relationship, restaurant, Tray Taker, voice, voice change, work on December 31, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Dear Frankie
Posted in Introspection, Movies, Unknowable Longing, journal, tagged boy, boylove, boylover, boys, deaf, Dear Frankie, emotion, father, feeling, love, mother, movie, need, Unknowable Longing on December 29, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I just rewatched Dear Frankie. I’d guess it’s the fourth or fifth time I’ve watched it, but it’s been a while since the last time. I wish I could come up with words to truly describe how the movie makes me feel. But the emotion is too raw, too primal, too pure to be accurately [...]
Inspiration
Posted in 13, Introspection, Job, Memories, journal, tagged boylove, boylover, pedophilia, pedophile, boy, boys, music, voice, work, citadel, choir, cute, Boy Scouts, inspiration, JCPenny, Hulu, skinny, 13, thirteen, Christmas carols, men and boys, LP, LPs, records, Mozart, Bach, Beethoven, Boarders, CDs, Westminster Cathedral Choir, Vienna Boys' Choir, Max Emanual Cencic, Handel, Schubert, Strauss, 20th Century, leadership, Eagle Scout, Tray Taker on December 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I foolishly left my journal at home yesterday. Well, not so much foolishly as forgetfully. I meant to bring it, knowing I was working a double. In actuality, though, I worked a tripple. The AM shift had two banquets overlapping.
Anyway, The Restaurant seems to have hired a pair of children. (I assume they are 14.) [...]
Obligatory
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Christmas, Joyeux Noël, Merry Christmas, Noël on December 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yeah, most likely you could click on almost any blog on WordPress (or Blogger, or…) and find this post, but to quote the song, “Although it’s been said many times, many ways: Merry Christmas to you.”
Gotta share the joy! Hope you all have a holiday season (even if you don’t celebrate this holiday) filled with [...]
Fail
Posted in Introspection, journal, tagged Boy Scouts, chicken, fear, reason, volunteer on December 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am a chicken. It’s seven o’clock, but I just can’t make myself go to the scout meeting. Now I’m planning to get started with scouts come January. It’s not a bad idea, but it’s born of fear, not reason.
I don’t look very leader-like at the moment. unshaved, wearing a hoodie that shows my chest [...]
Progress
Posted in journal, tagged bank, Boy Scouts, brokerage, brunch, citadel, coffee, Fafsa, investments, mentor, oil change, recomendations, video, volunteer, youtube on December 22, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday I accomplished much of what I set out to do. But not all, at little fault of my own. I couldn’t find The Secretary of State after church, so I didn’t get a chance to talk to her. I’ll have to send an email to her today about meeting my predecessor.
The Boys were not [...]
What needs doing
Posted in journal, tagged Boy Scouts, car, choir, citadel, community college, double, Fafsa, financial aid, maintenance, mentor, oil change, practice, references, volunteer on December 20, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Right back into things. I got home around 6 last night, went to BBM’s house to watch a TV show, and now I’m on a one hour break, back at work, pulling a double. Joy.
On the other hand, I don’t have work tomorrow or Monday, and not until noon on Tuesday. A little worried about [...]
Not-so-evil plan
Posted in Introspection, journal, tagged Boy Scouts, chorus, citadel, debt, degree, England, lessons, mentor, plan, school, singing, study, voice, World of Warcraft on December 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
A plan is starting to take shape in my mind. A goal. A direction. I need to write it down to sort it out and to stop myself forgetting. It will be nice to have direction if I approve the plan and put it into action.
The goal is to move to England with a job [...]
Now I walk in beauty
Posted in journal, tagged beauty, boat, boy, boys, cruise, poetry, ship on December 18, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
In which I enjoy the many beautiful boys surrounding me on the ship, and am moved to recite poetry.
Evil plan
Posted in Memories, Unknowable Longing, journal, tagged boat, boy, boylover, boylovers, boys, cousins, cruise, dolphin, evil plan, excursion, hot tub, lie, mentor, past, penises, pre-teen, scouts, ship, shower, tall tale, teen, unkowable longing on December 17, 2008 | 2 Comments »
About 11:45pm. My evil plan failed. I think I waited too long.
After the pretty horrific show tonight, I went back to the room to change and go to the toilet. Along the way I committed myself to try my evil plan. Place myself in a hot tub on the main patio (not the adults only [...]
