I want a partner. I think this has been the result of much of my recent thought. It’s why I tell The King and My Friend on the Facebook. Not the only reasons — the ones I have before are still the primary reasons — but part of it is seeking a partner. Maybe the [...]
Archive for April, 2009
Partnership
Posted in Introspection, journal on April 25, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Crash
Posted in Introspection, Unknowable Longing, journal, tagged boy, boys, choir, crash, cute, depression, emotion, friends, friendship, Liebesschmertz, music, pain, singing, Unknowable Longing, voice on April 25, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Sometimes I find myself daydreaming that I can talk to someone. I can be quite articulate and eloquent in my head. But I’m not often that way face to face.
I’m feeling depressed today. Last night I saw and English men and boys’ choir perform at a local church. They were pretty good. I had some [...]
Consequences
Posted in journal, tagged boylove, boylover, friends, friendship, pedophile, pedophilia on April 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
That was a little unexpected. I really should have seen this possibility, but quite frankly I was thinking of other things.
I guess I am no longer friends with the two boylovers I know out in CA. It’s a little sad. Right after MFotF left last Monday after I came out, I sent messages off to [...]
Follow-up
Posted in Introspection, journal, tagged Bach, birthday, boy, boy soprano, every day life, friends, friendship, year in review on April 18, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday was my birthday. 25. Quarter century. It has been a less than ideal year, and an interesting final week.
So, 24 started out alright. I had a successful recital, graduated with my master’s degree, went to a summer music festival where I renewed my friendship with Jess and learned a little about my isolationist tendencies [...]
Catching up
Posted in journal, tagged boylove, boylover, pedophilia, pedophile, boy, music, friendship, choir, movie, health, heart, insurance, coming out, piano, doctor, anxiety, recital on April 14, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Quite a bit has happened. Let’s start with the mundane and move to the more interesting.
A short time ago, my parents came to the city to attend an exhibition. They enjoyed it. After that they went to see Sissy’s new apartment. She lives near by now, in the next state over. On Saturday we all [...]
The Hobbit, part II
Posted in journal, tagged audio book, book, reading, The Hobbit, Tolkien on April 11, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I finished The Hobbit last night. I enjoyed it. I didn’t love it, though. Again, I’m expecting LotR to interest me more, since it is a more complicated story with darker themes. I like dark stories.
The Hobbit
Posted in journal, tagged audio book, book, Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, Tolkien on April 8, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I got The Hobbit on audio from the library. I’m listening to it as I clean. It’s mildly amusing but hardly holds me spellbound. I think LotR will be better.
Chest pain, seriously
Posted in journal, tagged chest, coffee, heart, heart attack, insurance, Palestrina, palpitations, Super Flumina Babylonis, The Citadel on April 6, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Scary. Last Thursday I drank the equivalent of 4 cups of coffee around 3pm, and then didn’t eat dinner. At rehearsal that night I started feeling strange during Super Flumina Babylonis. All the held notes. My heart felt…strange. Weak. So I dropped out and focused on breathing regularly. Something similar had happened before. By breathing [...]
Insecurity
Posted in Job, journal, tagged anxious, css, design, html, site, The Citadel, web, web site, xhtml on April 1, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I’m starting to get discouraged. I started the ball rolling at the Citadel to switch our web host. That would involve redesigning the website, but now I’m realizing after doing some research and playing with some software that I have no clue how to recreate the site we have. No idea how to create the static [...]
