This may be slightly incoherent, and I apologize for that. I wrote it in about 6 different sessions over the course of a month.
***Please note: Laws regarding the depiction if children in the context of sexuality differ widely by region, both within and between nations. Know the laws in your area. This recollection will include [...]
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Rain
Posted in Introspection, Job, Memories, Unknowable Longing, journal, tagged Boy Scouts, boylove, boylovers, boys, concert, fantasy, helpless, job, melancholy, nostalgia, pedophile, pedophilia, rain, raining, rehearsal, rescue, restuarant, self-loathing, sick, sing, society, umbrella, Unknowable Longing, work on January 1, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I called off from work tomorrow. They’re not going to be happy about that, but I must get better. My voice is almost completely gone and I have a rehearsal tomorrow, a concert the day after, and then a service, another concert, and a singing-social event on Sunday. I can’t take chances.
I remembered something as [...]
Inspiration
Posted in 13, Introspection, Job, Memories, journal, tagged 13, 20th Century, Bach, Beethoven, Boarders, boy, Boy Scouts, boylove, boylover, boys, CDs, choir, Christmas carols, citadel, cute, Eagle Scout, Handel, Hulu, inspiration, JCPenny, leadership, LP, LPs, Max Emanual Cencic, men and boys, Mozart, music, pedophile, pedophilia, records, Schubert, skinny, Strauss, thirteen, Tray Taker, Vienna Boys' Choir, voice, Westminster Cathedral Choir, work on December 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I foolishly left my journal at home yesterday. Well, not so much foolishly as forgetfully. I meant to bring it, knowing I was working a double. In actuality, though, I worked a tripple. The AM shift had two banquets overlapping.
Anyway, The Restaurant seems to have hired a pair of children. (I assume they are 14.) [...]
Evil plan
Posted in Memories, Unknowable Longing, journal, tagged boat, boy, boylover, boylovers, boys, cousins, cruise, dolphin, evil plan, excursion, hot tub, lie, mentor, past, penises, pre-teen, scouts, ship, shower, tall tale, teen, unkowable longing on December 17, 2008 | 2 Comments »
About 11:45pm. My evil plan failed. I think I waited too long.
After the pretty horrific show tonight, I went back to the room to change and go to the toilet. Along the way I committed myself to try my evil plan. Place myself in a hot tub on the main patio (not the adults only [...]
Middle school periods
Posted in Memories, journal, tagged boy, cleaning, daydream, middle school, periods, scheduling, shower on December 8, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I hate cleaning. When I daydream, I often imagine having enough money to hire a housekeeper. (Usually one with a cute 11-year-old son.) As I was showering after cleaning the shower, I was remembering the odd scheduling at my middle school. They called it 8 periods, but almost all classes took 2 and classes changed [...]
Tiny Tawny
Posted in Memories, journal, tagged boy, boys, cruelty, feet, friendship, Memories, memory, music camp, shame, small feet, teasing on November 20, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
*note: All names I use are nicknames. I do not refer to these people by these names to their face, behind their backs, or even in my own head. The nicknames exist for the purpose of this blog only. Sometimes, I don’t remember somebody’s name and so I give them a nickname in my journal [...]
