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Too thin

The letter was thin.  Too thin.  I knew right away what that meant.  The mentoring agency has rejected my application.  I’m…I really don’t know what I am.  What I feel.  I’m not surprised, but only because I just couldn’t believe that something so great could happen to me.  And it didn’t.  I’m not distraught, or angry, but…  I guess I’m disappointed.  And a little sad.

Now what?  Now where do I go?  What do I do?

I don’t want to dwell on whys and what ifs because I cannot know, but if I had to guess I’d say that my precarious life situation is what got me rejected.  They don’t trust that I can be a stable, constant enough presence in a boy’s life.  Even if that’s not why I was rejected, it’s what I choose to believe.

I’m shaking a little bit.

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